Thursday, November 16, 2006

After these messages we'll be riiight back...

I only write on here when bad things are happening. This week has sucked shit. Last week wasn't much better. Scratch that Thursday and Friday of last week were great.
I took today off. I feel like I am digging myself a deeper and deeper hole in my classroom. I've begun to anticipate my class not paying attention and goofing off when I plan, so I underplan. I lower my expectations and I plan on not teaching. Believe it or not this doesn't work. I know it doesn't work. I've known that from day one. I just can't keep myself motivated to be energized and put the effort into teaching something when there are going to be too many disruptions for me to get the message across.
Freshmen Seminar is completely gone. Students aren't even listening to me. The impression I get is that students like me. They like me like you would like a bossy friend. They don't view me as their teacher.
All is not lost though. Don't think that I am giving up. It isn't even thanksgiving yet. There are too many intelligent students in my classroom for me to give up, or for me to continue like this. Next week should be pretty light and full of distractions, but following the thanksgiving break I'm going to change things. I'm going to get discipline under control. I'm going to be more firm with these students. I really need to realize the resources I have that can help me. There are people in the school that could help me get my classroom under control.